People get really into that whole New Years' Resolutions "new year, new me" kind of thing. And although I've never really been someone to give myself elaborate (or at the very least, formal) goals about things, I love the idea of it. I love the idea of that whole "start fresh" mentality. In early January of 2013, I would end a lot of sentences with "but what the heck, it's 2013!" In the social media world, I suppose this is called "rebranding."
And so, I am rebranding. Junior year of high school I took a break from learning AutoCAD to take some web design classes. I learned HTML and CSS, and became somewhat familiar with JavaScript. This summer, it is my intention to become intimately familiar with JavaScript, and refresh my memory on the other two, and then finally create my own website... or revamp this one. But I got sick of waiting for this summer. New year, new me, right? Love Letters and Blog Posts is no more. I would like to formally welcome you all to The Glitter Bonfire.
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It turns out that a couple months ago I, on a whim, entered a writing contest called the L. Ron Hubbard Writers of the Future Contest. I totally forgot about this, until a few weeks ago when I got an email informing me that I had won an honorable mention. I couldn't even remember what story I entered. After a bit of emailing back and forth, I discovered that it was a short story I wrote in one sitting back in May. The story is entitled "A Ghost Story," and it was inspired by the French screenplay Les Jeux Sont Faits by Jean-Paul Sartre. Today I finally reread it, and I'm actually kind of proud of myself. I figured, since stories are supposed to be read, I might as well share it here. And so I am. Without further ado, "A Ghost Story," by Audrey Goates.
Today's blog post has plotted itself out in a multitude of ways. I was going to talk more about this blog's origin story, or my origin story, or Inciting Incidents or other blogs, but I think instead I'll talk about me. Myself. Not my origin story, but the basic facts of me, because I figure to get to know me you need to know about me.
My favorite color is pink. I like glitter, and stars, and books. My best friends are my cat and my Perry the Platypus stuffed animal. I have some people best friends too, but I prefer not to pick favorites. Sometimes I act like I'm very outgoing, but the reality is that I'm shy and très introverted. I speak un peu de français souvent, and I can often be found wearing a black felt beret. I run cross country and distance track, and most of my friends are drama kids and/or band geeks. I'm a Mormon girl living in Small Town, USA. My mind is louder, wilder, and more analytic than anyone else I know. I have a lot of issues with a lot of things. I don't usually tell people my issues. I prefer to be mysterious. I strive to be dynamic. I like big cities and wild places. I thrive in places that are truly alive. Teddy Roosevelt was my favorite president. I talk about my feelings a lot, but only shallowly. I alternate between being a compulsive liar and brutally honest. My Hogwarts House is Ravenclaw, but my Divergent Faction is Candor. Right now, my favorite word is glitterati. My current favorite song is Elton John's Your Song. My anthem is Taylor Swift's New Romantics. My favorite band is Echosmith. I can talk forever about high school cross country and books. I feel most confident when I talk to people like we're already in the middle of a conversation. I'm saving up for an iPad mini. I love dresses, especially ones from the 1950's. I have long, thick, straight blonde hair. I can totally rock the 80's thing. My star sign is a Taurus. My Chinese Zodiac is a tiger. I get angry easily but I've figured out how to bite my tongue and dig my nails into my palm to keep from doing something that will make me end up where I don't want to be. I have an unusual and recent love of Australian literature and a slightly less recent one of pirates. I question nearly everything. It's starting to depress me. I have so many things I can go on and on and on about concerning myself, so many shallow facts and definite truths that even once combined can't ever tell you everything about me. You can't know me until you've met me and talked to me and cried with me, and so truly, nobody really knows me. Isn't that depressing? xoxo The title pretty much says it all.
A lot of the time in programming, one of the first things a learner will ever have the computer say to them is "Hello World!" So I figured, hey, why not? I might as well have "Hello World!" be the first thing I say, to you. This is my blog. This is where I'm planning on spilling the secrets of the universe. Or, at least, the secrets of my life. There are a lot of ways you can start a blog - you can pick up like you've been doing this for years, you can make a meek little "hi there" post, or you can test the waters with what you want to say. I'm gonna do all of that in this post. I've started with the meekness, but I'm a comfortable inhabitant of the wild world of the World Wide Web, and so I'm not about to be terribly shy. But I also want to seem humble, and I want to develop along with this website. The page will change as I change, and for right now, I'm still trying to figure it out, so the page (and this post) will start out how I feel: boring, but a little hopeful. My initial plan for this blog was to put it up on the first day of my summer vacation, because I thought that was going to be when my mission to find myself really begins. But I keep having so many revelations and existential crises and reading so many thought-provoking things that I decided that now was the time to start. Putting off beginning this blog would be the same thing as putting off my new beginning, and so I can't wait any longer. Today is the day that I test the waters, that my story lets itself begin. In every book, the first few chapters are slow, and that's okay. I've realized it's better that way, because then you can really see how the whole thing (plot, characters, emotions) develops. The story can only unravel if it starts out somewhat normal, right? I think this website is going to help me, and everyone else, to figure out who I am. Hopefully, this website is how I'm going to reach a sort of enlightenment, how I'm going to come to terms with my identity, and how I'm going to sort through all my problems. I'm going to put on a show for you, with nothing but the magic of words, the Internet, and my screaming mind. And please, let me know how it goes. I can't do this without you. xoxo |
I'm Audrey, a college student and existential rambler.
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